How will my friends and family see me now? How do I explain to the kids around me without the fear of being rejected? How can I possibly look at myself in the mirror without being freaked out when I can barely recognize myself? How can I honestly ever live a normal life when my life is full of uncertainties? One by one, these were only a few of the many questions going through my mind.
I struggled on a daily basis to find my place in this highly judgmental world that sees my flaws more than they see my heart. Every time that I went outside, I could sense that people were staring hard at me, some with a curious look on their faces and others with rejection. There were a few instances where I would sit on a bench, either at school or at a bus stop and people/kids would pass by me whispering loudly how ugly I looked as if I was invincible. I felt crushed. During those times, I was very insecure and self conscious. I felt like the world came crushing down on me when I was just a kid starting a new life in a new Country.
Today, I find it absolutely amazing that I can stand in front of a mirror all smiling while feeling confident and handsome. If I could go back in time, maybe I’d be more confident, accept myself as I am and embrace the fact that am unique. Tonight, if you are that kid currently going through similar struggles, I just want you to know that step by step you’re going to get through it. Don’t worry if it looks impossible right now. I thought it was impossible as well, but if you see me today and how I live my life with this skin condition, you would find it hard to believe that I’ve went through all these struggles, but I did & survived and you will as well.